Today is the first day since learning I have cancer that I have smiled often. Today I told jokes and was myself. My thoughts are full of hope and faith that I'll be okay. Sure, I’ll encounter times of suffering, sadness, desolation, and desperation, but I know I’ll live on. Learning to accept that I am sick with cancer, although I am experiencing my body as I always have, has been critical. I never denied it, but admitting it as happening to me, knowing it's not my fault, has made it easier to understand and want to take action.
Tomorrow I meet with the gastroenterologist to find out what the next step for me will be. I'm sure he'll send me to an oncologist and start the chemo and radiation. I'm excited to start the treatment so I can get better soon.